Sometimes I worry that I will never feel as alive and inspired as I do being in art school. I am constantly surrounded by intelligent & self-assured artists who encourage me in every way, and I’m afraid I’ll never get that again after I graduate. Because of this, I’m happy that I still have a year left of school. I am in no way ready to leave yet. I love my teachers and I love each different school of thought they offer.
Today has been a really really great day, I think maybe because I chugged a bunch of coffee before I left for class (which magnifies any emotion I have, in this case happiness) and also my last class was cancelled but really the one class I had, my painting class (which is my favorite) was extra extra awesome today. My professor, Bruce, got off track as usual and started talking about his life and how being an artist is something that you have to protect but nobody can ever take it away from you. He talked about how he went through times having no money and being a pizza boy and a house painter but he was always AND AN ARTIST. He always saved time to work in his studio, he always made sure to HAVE a studio space, he always made sure he was making something. And that’s all you can do, really. Keep the creativity inside of you alive for your whole life and do it forever, no matter what else you’re doing and no matter who tells you it’s not worth it. It is worth it. Sometimes I feel unsure about choosing the art field as a career but I am more and more sure with each passing day that it was the right choice. I can always do something else afterwards if it’s not enough but I will always have the beautiful knowledge of everything I have learned being here and doing this. I feel really happy.
Today is a great day.